Memories
Many times during the day I think of things that would be interesting to post. By the time I actually get around to posting, I usually forget all of them, as is the case tonight.
On a separate topic, I have a really good memory. I remember things from a long time ago, and I remember inane events that most people wouldn't think important. It's helped me do well so far in med school. I'm also good at remembering the things I dream about. The two things may be related, since I find that a lot of times when I wake up, I find that the things I dream about have something to do with a person, or a place, or a thought I experienced the day before.
Sometimes during the day I'll see something that sparks a glimmer of familiarity in me. But a lot of times I can't remember whether the thing I'm reminded of is something that really happened, possibly a long time ago, or just something I dreamed about. Sometimes if I think long and hard enough I'll remember exactly what it was, and sometimes I won't. It hasn't happened to me recently or I would give an example.
I wonder if this has something to do with me tending to be an introverted person. I have so many things, thoughts, memories, running around in my head that I can keep myself occupied for long periods of time. For example, I can be sitting in a car driving someone somewhere, and I won't say anything, sometimes for the entire ride. If the radio is on, I listen to the music, and my mind starts running with it. I picture the music video in my head if I've seen. Most of the time I think of some time when I can remember hearing the same song. It could have been on the bus riding to Hunter when I was 13, or at Yankee Stadium as someone's intro music, or at a roller skating rink in the 1980's when I heard the first song I can actually remember hearing, Aerosmith's "Walk This Way," back when people went to roller skating rinks for parties.
And that event will lead me to someone I saw at that event, which will lead me to all the things I can remember about that person, which will lead me to some place where me and that person spent some period of time, and so on. I can keep myself occupied forever. I have no idea if this is normal or not. I know that I always see people on the train or subway or just walking in the street on cell phones, and I always, or usually, think that they call someone because they don't have the attention span to spend some time alone with themselves, just thinking and reflecting on their day, or their week, or their life.
I don't think it's normal. People always tell me that I'm quiet, or ask why I'm so quiet. I can't tell you how many times I've heard that this year, on different rotations meeting different residents and attendings. It seems perfectly normal to me to sit quietly, and take things in around me and understand them. But everyone else seems to think that if you aren't talking, you aren't interacting. I like just being alone with my thoughts. People should get to know themselves. If people were in touch with themselves a little more I believe we would have more deep, meaningful interactions. Don't get me wrong, I'm still totally nuts on the inside, but at least I'm aware of it.
This post started out as just an observation and I wrote and I like how it came out.
On a separate topic, I have a really good memory. I remember things from a long time ago, and I remember inane events that most people wouldn't think important. It's helped me do well so far in med school. I'm also good at remembering the things I dream about. The two things may be related, since I find that a lot of times when I wake up, I find that the things I dream about have something to do with a person, or a place, or a thought I experienced the day before.
Sometimes during the day I'll see something that sparks a glimmer of familiarity in me. But a lot of times I can't remember whether the thing I'm reminded of is something that really happened, possibly a long time ago, or just something I dreamed about. Sometimes if I think long and hard enough I'll remember exactly what it was, and sometimes I won't. It hasn't happened to me recently or I would give an example.
I wonder if this has something to do with me tending to be an introverted person. I have so many things, thoughts, memories, running around in my head that I can keep myself occupied for long periods of time. For example, I can be sitting in a car driving someone somewhere, and I won't say anything, sometimes for the entire ride. If the radio is on, I listen to the music, and my mind starts running with it. I picture the music video in my head if I've seen. Most of the time I think of some time when I can remember hearing the same song. It could have been on the bus riding to Hunter when I was 13, or at Yankee Stadium as someone's intro music, or at a roller skating rink in the 1980's when I heard the first song I can actually remember hearing, Aerosmith's "Walk This Way," back when people went to roller skating rinks for parties.
And that event will lead me to someone I saw at that event, which will lead me to all the things I can remember about that person, which will lead me to some place where me and that person spent some period of time, and so on. I can keep myself occupied forever. I have no idea if this is normal or not. I know that I always see people on the train or subway or just walking in the street on cell phones, and I always, or usually, think that they call someone because they don't have the attention span to spend some time alone with themselves, just thinking and reflecting on their day, or their week, or their life.
I don't think it's normal. People always tell me that I'm quiet, or ask why I'm so quiet. I can't tell you how many times I've heard that this year, on different rotations meeting different residents and attendings. It seems perfectly normal to me to sit quietly, and take things in around me and understand them. But everyone else seems to think that if you aren't talking, you aren't interacting. I like just being alone with my thoughts. People should get to know themselves. If people were in touch with themselves a little more I believe we would have more deep, meaningful interactions. Don't get me wrong, I'm still totally nuts on the inside, but at least I'm aware of it.
This post started out as just an observation and I wrote and I like how it came out.
posted by Chris at 5:04 PM
1 Comments:
It's normal. I think. I do it too, to a lesser extent.
For the record, I'm not upset at your stats from Saturday, just how you acted the entire time. But that's in the past.
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